EDIT: I am alright now, thank you so much for the lovely words, they all made me feel way better than I did this morning ;^;
*hugs you all*
---So hard to draw anything when you feel like you want to curl down and die.
Welcome to the world of immigrant where nobody wants to hire you cos you are foreigner and they trash your CV as soon as they read you weird f name.
Where they don't believe you that polish person can actually be educated and and they ask you twice to make sure that you really said that you graduated from a college.
The surprised faces when you speak English more fluently than TARZAN.
...and when you finally get a job you a treated like a shit.
Where you are not allowed to do things which other employees do for no reason other than your different nationality,
They don't tell you that but they let you KNOW.
''Why everyone else can dress up nicely and I am supposed to work in this black baggy shirt on top of it''
-It's your uniform
-But nobody else wears it...
-Well YOU have to.
Why everyone can park their car on the parking but me?
-Cos you can't *end of discussion*
-You can't make calls
-But I only do them during lunch time and...everyone else does them all the time, even during working hours.
-Well you can't at any time.
Haha at one job I was reported for eating my lunch while everyone else did as well.
What the f*ck.
I am so sick and tired.
I applied to so many f jobs and nobody wants me anywhere.
Not as animator, nor as illustrator, nor poster designer, not even POSTCARD art worker.
When everyone sees you as a shit eventually you start to feel like one.